Four weeks on Weight Watchers

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And I guess it is true because it has been right at four weeks, and I definitely feel a change in myself.

Tuesday night at Zumba I could tell that I felt better doing the routines. I’ve started to pick up the steps and I was able to keep my intensity up for a longer period of time. Throughout the week I noticed that my pants were fitting a little looser. I’ve been sleeping better since I stopped drinking Diet Coke.

Oh yeah. I haven’t told y’all about that yet have I. Hmmm. Well I’ve been a Diet Coke addict for… well, for as long as I’ve been an adult I guess. I was drinking five to six Diet Cokes each day during the week and a lot more than that on the weekends.

My therapist asked me to cut back to only drinking them in the morning to see if it would help with my sleep at night. Well I know me. I don’t do “cutting back” very well. To me the five or six per day was cutting back. I decided that it would be best if I cut them out all together.

Long story short, sort of, it has been really hard, but I haven’t had one in over a week. The second day was HORRIBLE, but I survived. I still crave them all the time, but I’m taking it like I’m taking Weight Watchers, one day at a time. All I have to do is not drink one today.

All of this leads up to me feeling pretty great when I stepped on that scale Wednesday at my meeting. Honestly I wasn’t expecting anything. In the last few weeks I’ve been either upset or elated by my weigh ins and they have all been pretty much the same, between 1 and 2 pounds.

Well imagine my surprise yesterday when I stepped on the scale to see a 3.8lb loss. I won’t lie. I did a little dance right there on the scale. I was bouncing the rest of the day.

Then last night I decided to take a step class at my regular gym.

The place where I take Zumba doesn’t have a Wednesday class, but I wanted to do something so I called the gym yesterday to see what classes they offered. They had a 5:30 Zumba, which is next to impossible for me to make, and a 6:30 step. I emailed a trainer friend and asked her if she thought I could do it. She told me to go and to modify when I needed.

It was hard y’all. I mean Zumba is hard, but it is a different kind of hard. This class was intense. I was not able to use the step past five minutes of the class, but I managed to modify all of the moves and just do them on the floor. Thankfully the instructor noticed and a couple of times she showed me a way to modify a step so that I could do it on the floor.

By the time I finished I was huffing and puffing and red and sweaty and hurting and tired and sad and happy. I know that sounds like a crazy mix of stuff. I was happy because I managed to finish. I did the complete hour, and I worked out hard y’all. Like really, really hard.

I was sad because it was that hard. Twenty years ago I could have done that class full out, and I would have left just thinking I had gotten a good work out. I have damaged and abused my body so much over the last 20 years. I have, ME, no one force fed me cookies. I did this to myself and it hurts. I get so angry at myself for allowing this to happen.

Now I know I said last week that we can’t dwell in the past. I’m not dwelling. I’m acknowledging and I think that is a big difference. I know I can’t be all “woe is me” and focus on just the mistakes, but I do think it is important to learn from the mistakes we’ve made in the past. So while I will not dwell on it, I will learn from it.

Week 4 Loss: 3.8 pounds
Total Loss: 8 pounds

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