I didn’t know what to expect when I wrote last week’s post. Laughter, ridicule, disdain… overweight people get a lot of that. What I got though was love and support and encouragement. You can not imagine how much my heart soared with every comment and email I received.
One of the things that really shocked me were the comments and emails that congratulated me on my bravery. I’ve never thought of myself as brave, and I definitely didn’t feel that way last week when I was writing that post and uploading those photos. I felt ashamed and embarrassed that I’ve let myself get to this place. I felt tired of feeling this way. I felt determined to do something about it.
I’ve thought a lot about bravery this week since receiving those comments and emails. I realized that bravery is just another word for courage. I have tons of that. I think of courage in the terms of the quote above, one of my favorite quotes by the way. Standing back up when you’ve been knocked down 100 times. Trying again no matter how many times you’ve failed. Looking failure in the eye and saying “fuck you.”
That’s what I’m doing this time. I’ve tried so many times to lose weight, and I’ve failed so many times. I may fail this time too. I’m alright with that. What I’m not alright with is giving up. The only way this weight can beat me is if I give up. I don’t do that.
So once again I’m saddling up for a long hard ride. This time I plan to lock my knees and hang on for a whole lot longer than eight seconds.
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What I found most brave was your willingness to make your challenge public, complete with a picture. To me, that WAS saying "fuck you" to failure, because you definitely threw down the gauntlet. Good for you, brave girl!
I know you can do this! The best thing I ever did was writing about my progress nearly everyday on facebook. I knew deep down I had no reason to be ashamed and that I couldn't really HIDE my struggle as it was clearly showing on my ass. Now instead of YOu go girl emails I get daily emails asking HOW i did it! That's even better! Plus you have ME behind you! You can't fail with ME here! (it's all about ME)…
Glad to be in the stands for your ride.
You are so very brave! I clicked over from your comment on SITS and feel like I got lucky cause I really love your blog. One the things I love about blogging is that I make my goals public, suddenly, I'm very accountable, you know? It's in print! People are watching! I must keep going, keep trying! I wish you all the success on your journey, and will visit your blog again.
I really am proud of you!!
I wish you success! Losing weight is a struggle, but with your courage to document it here, I know you'll be successful! Good luck!
I'm a new reader, just found you via SITS. I must say that I agree you are brave! I look forward to cheering you on through this journey, I know how hard it can be.
Happy Friday!
I'm in a similar position with you-and knowing I'm not alone helped me so much to get my motivation level up back to where it should be! Thanks for being so transparent and genuine…it really isn't easy!
Good luck lady1
You can do this! We'll do it together!
By the way…I have a weight loss blog. http://www.fat2fitmommy.com
I am very fat. And totally discouraged. I try and try to no avail. I feel like I start a new diet every week. It makes me crazy. Good for you for sharing your journey!
you'll do it. I know you will.
Hang in there! You'll make it to your goal with that attitude!
Hey … hats off to you!!! I missed that post but I went back to find it. You do have courage to put this out there. I tried this as various times on my blog and I continually fail. I'm always in the process of trying to lose weight and then failing and then restarting. It is darn hard. I wish you the best of luck and the willpower of iron!
You go girl!!
Bravery, courage, stubborness… it all amounts to summin good! I can't wait to hear about your progress and see your sassy photos!
Great post about saddling up and being brave! You’ve picked a great time to start your challenge, and it’s wonderful that you have lots of support. I’ll be cheering for you!
That is one of the best quotes we can use to face with fear. As the slogan of Nike, "Just Do it!" You are embarking on a challenging journey ahead and I believe with determination and perseverance, you can achieve what you set to achieve! One day when you look back, the story that you share will touch and inspire others to move to greatness too.
I'm in pretty much the same boat. I desperately need to do better. My weight is ruining my life – not physically, yet, but in just about every other way imaginable.
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